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Title: Porcelain
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Kurt + Finn brotherness, Kurt/Blaine and Finn/Rachel
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1,568
Summary: The night of their parents' wedding, Kurt finds himself sharing a conversation about their history, Blaine, and Karofsky with the guy he used to be crazy about and who ended up being his "big" brother. His life, sometimes, is insane.



It's weird, being in his house alone with Finn. A year ago, this might've been his biggest wet dream; now it's just sort of nice.

After the loudness of the wedding, and the insanity of dancing together, and the happiness of sending their parents off to a hotel on the far side of town, there wasn't much to do besides have an after party at the Hummel's. Rachel came, and so did Mercedes, and a few other glee clubbers besides. They'd talked and laughed and watched movies until the wee hours of the morning, their pool of house guests always dwindling until it was just the two of them.

For a moment, Kurt thinks it will be awkward; that Finn won't want to sleep in the house alone with him. He was moved beyond words by what happened at the reception, but he knows better than anyone that old habits die hard.

But Finn's the one who suggests they camp out on the living room floor like kids, tangled up in comforters and pillows with the tail end of an action flick playing quietly in the background.

Kurt's never had a brother before, but this, the quiet camaraderie, seems like a good start.

"Finn," he says after silence has reigned for a long while. His voice is loud in the dark, but it's easier to talk now that the only light is the credits rolling on the T.V. screen.

"Hmm?"

He sounds sleepy, and come to think of it, Kurt is exhausted himself. But he feels the need to keep talking now that he's started, to get this out so that their first night of being a family doesn't end before the past is absolved between them.

"I'm sorry. I never told you that and I should have."

"For what?"

Finn knows for what, or at least, Kurt is pretty sure he does, but after what Finn did for him today, he thinks he at least owes Finn the courtesy of spelling it out.

"For—for harassing you. I—I didn't think—" He stops. "I just. I know what it feels like. To have someone…someone want something from you that you can't give. To have someone try to take it against your will. And thinking about making you feel that way…look, I never thought about what the other side was like, that's all. And now—now I've thought about it, and God, I'm really sorry that I made you feel like this."

Finn leans up on one elbow, looking at Kurt in confusion. "Like this? You know what it feels like?" He frowns. "How do you know what that's like? Is this—is this about that Blaine guy?"

"No," Kurt says quickly, because wow, no, the way he feels about Blaine is quite the opposite, and Kurt doubts Blaine even has the capacity to make him feel like this. He can't believe he himself ever had the capacity to make Finn feel this way, either, although at least he never went this far. "No, not Blaine. It doesn't matter. I'm just sorry, is all. You really stepped up today and apologized for—for. You know. And I didn't even realize until about an hour ago that I never apologized to you. I really should have. I'm sorry."

Finn pats him on the shoulder and shrugs. "It's cool. I mean, it wasn't, but it is now. We're brothers."

He smiles, as if this settles everything, and then flops back down onto his back. Kurt nods, even though Finn can't see him, and does the same, their shoulders touching companionably through several layers of blankets.

After another long silence, Finn says, "If you don't want to tell me who made you feel that way, fine. I get that. But—but seriously, promise me it's not that Blaine guy. Because if he's pushing you to do stuff you're not ready for, then I have to kick his ass. I'm like, two months older than you, and that totally makes me the big brother."

Kurt laughs so hard he actually has to push at Finn's shoulder to let him know what a lovable idiot he is.

"Fine," he says, after his laughter dies down. "You're the big brother. But you don't need to beat Blaine up. We're not even dating. Yet, anyway. We're still 'talking.'"

Kurt always hated the term 'talking.' All it meant was that Straight Guy had taken Straight Girl out on one date and she'd made out with him or something, and they were planning a second date but hadn't gotten around to it yet, so they weren't technically dating, since one date didn't count as dating, and—well, Kurt's head started hurting trying to keep up with the Straight Person Logic after all that, because it seemed like a giant complicated mess to him. So he figured "talking" was for Crazy Straight Kids who didn't have enough drama in their life and needed to create some.

Then he'd met Blaine and…yeah. They were "talking." Because it wasn't dating if they never acknowledged that each outing was, in fact, a date.

"Oh. Then…"

"It doesn't matter," Kurt says firmly. "But thanks. Good to know that the next time a guy breaks my heart, I can sic you on them."

"You totally can," Finn says agreeably. "So what will you do for me if I get my heart broken?"

Kurt considers that. "I'll challenge Rachel to another diva-off and kick her ass so soundly she'll be singing Taylor Swift songs about how someone done went and broke her heart again for weeks. Being better than her is a way more effective way to torture her than physical violence or slushies."

Finn laughs, and flicks the TV off entirely. The room falls into complete darkness and it takes Kurt a moment to realize that Finn is up on one elbow again, hovering over Kurt awkwardly.

"I'm not going to be the Marsha to your Greg Brady," Kurt says, amused. "I'm way over that and even if I weren't, ew, you're my brother now."

Finn snorts. "I just. I'm sorry, but are you sure it's not Blaine? I'm sorry, Kurt, but you can't just tell me that someone is trying to 'take what you don't want to give' and expect me not to put it together with this guy you're spending all your free time with. I mean, I know what dating is like. Always wanting to make the other person happy, especially if you love them. With me, it's not so much sex as Rachel wanting me to do ridiculous songs and wear awful costumes, but—"

"It's not Blaine," Kurt promises. "I swear. Blaine's a perfect gentleman. He hasn't even kissed me yet." The, though I really wish he would, is unspoken, but just as loud as any words he actually said. "Look, Finn, can we please just drop it? I promise you it's not him. It's someone else and I don't want to talk about it."

A long pause, then, "If you were in trouble, you'd tell me, right?"

"Yeah."

"And this Blaine guy really does treat you right?"

"He treats me like a—" He cuts himself off, and laughs.

"What?"

"He treats me like I'm made of porcelain," Kurt finishes, and laughs again.

Finn doesn't seem to understand why that's funny, but Kurt doesn't mind. Only half of his laughter is because of the joke. The other half is the sheer insanity of sharing a conversation about Blaine with the guy he used to be crazy about, who somehow ended up being his "big" brother. His life, sometimes, is hysterical.

"I want to meet him," Finn says finally. "Make sure he's good enough for you. How come you didn't bring him to the wedding?"

Kurt sighs. "Because I told you, we're not even officially dating. Taking someone to a wedding…it's what you do with someone you really care about. Not what you do for your fifth not-a-date. And anyway, don't I get to comment on whether or not the girl you're actually dating is good enough for you?"

"Nope. I saw how happy singing that duet with her made you. Sorry, but your pass to pick on Rachel has been revoked."

"Fair enough," Kurt says into the silence. Then, "I'll see if he's available for family dinner on Friday. Might as well get through introducing him to you, Carol, and dad all at once. You should bring Rachel, too."

"She'll just spend the evening glaring at the competition," Finn says evenly, and Kurt admires the way he keeps all judgement out of his voice.

"Yeah, but it'll be nice. All of us together. Our family and the people we care about. But you have to be nice to Blaine, all right? I really like this guy."

"And you have to not snipe at Rachel for trying to wheedle out Warbler secrets," Finn counters.

Kurt thinks it over, and decides the payoff is worth the price.

"Deal," he says, and though it takes them a moment of fumbling in the dark to find each other's hands, they shake on it.

A little while later, Finn's breathing evens out as he drifts off into sleep, and Kurt thinks that between the wedding, finding a brother, having Blaine in his life—and having Karofsky out of it—things might, for the first time in his life, be looking up.
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Date: 2010-11-25 04:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blaqkheaven.livejournal.com
I wish this had been in Furt. This is a great gapfiller. <3

Date: 2010-11-25 04:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thanks! I'm so used to this show "leaving things out" that it's kind of just second nature for my brain to fill this kind of thing in. But what we got in the actual episode was definitely enough to make me happy. Brothers FTW.

Date: 2010-11-25 04:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] aphistas.livejournal.com
This was so good; this is how the new brothers totally should behave. ♥

Date: 2010-11-25 04:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
I refuse to believe this didn't go down until RMurph says so. And probably even after that, because, well, it's RMurph. Heh.

Thanks!

Date: 2010-11-25 04:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rusting-roses.livejournal.com
So very, very gorgeous. I absolutely adored this ep (Finn stepping up FTW!!) and I'm glad to see this absolutely adorable take on it!

Date: 2010-11-25 04:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thank you! I loved this episode so much it was insane. Like, wow, the love. But it still kind of bothers me that Kurt has never apologized, especially now that he knows how it feels. (Actually he knows a lot worse than how Finn felt, obviously, because Karofsky is way, way worse, but I'd think he'd have a more Finn!sympathetic viewing of it, in retrospect.) But who knows, maybe he eventually will and they're just saving that or something. I hope he eventually does on-screen, just so that the air is 100% absolutely clear between them. Honestly, I don't think Finn even needs to hear it at this point, I think Kurt just needs to say it, if you know what I mean.

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Date: 2010-11-25 04:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] canadianstudies.livejournal.com
This was really sweet <3

Date: 2010-11-25 04:51 am (UTC)

Date: 2010-11-25 05:52 am (UTC)
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I AM SO FULL OF HAPPINESS AND FEELINGS RIGHT NOW s.fnsflsd/faskjfksdg

I love this. In my mind, this happened. Incredibly fucking adorable and I can hear all of it in their voices.

Date: 2010-11-25 10:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thanks! I was worried about my Finn voice. Clueless, but lovable, jock-y straight boys are really not my forte. Can this just be the Hudmels show from now on? Because I really wish it would be.

Date: 2010-11-25 05:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] weyrdchic.livejournal.com
Oh man, I was hoping someone would do a moment like this, where Kurt realizes just what he did last year and what that means. So perfect. And freaking adorable.

Surprised Finn didn't put two and two together, knowing about Karofsky, but Finn's also dense as hell. XD

Date: 2010-11-25 10:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
I think if Finn were anyone else, and had those two pieces of information, he'd totally connect the dots. But it's Finn, so he's congratulating himself on the brilliant revelation that it must totally be Blaine! Genius!

I seriously hope they address it on the show--though I figure they won't--because even though what Kurt did isn't nearly as bad as what Karofsky has, it still should occur to someone that, you know, he's been through this before, but on the other side of the fence.

Alas, earwax.

Date: 2010-11-25 06:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jedishadowolf.livejournal.com
Oh yes, this is a perfect missing scene for "Furt". You did a great job with their voices. :)

Date: 2010-11-25 10:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!

Date: 2010-11-25 07:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] everything-inme.livejournal.com
Ugh, I love their relationship so much. You've captured it beautifully here.

Date: 2010-11-25 10:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thank you so much! Their dynamic is probably my favorite relationship on this show. Brothers FTW!

Date: 2010-11-25 07:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ooshady-girloo.livejournal.com
total deleted scene right here. just wrap that up into canon.

i totally thought Kurt would tell someone about Karofsky kissing him, that telling Blaine first would have been the catalyst. but he kept protecting the bully (to an extent) and this could have been a major proponent in keeping Karofsky away from him... but no dice. i'm sort of afraid to think what else could happen to Kurt to make him finally break down and tell of this harassment - he might even be back at WMHS when that happens.

Date: 2010-11-25 10:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Well...the thing is, I really wish Kurt would tell someone what Karofsky did to him. Really, I do. Someone who isn't Blaine, and who can see it objectively. (Because I think Blaine kind of...is sympathetic to Karofsky a little? He's obviously on Kurt's side, but at the same time, I think he sees, you know, a fellow gay man going through a hard time, and wants to help Karofsky out of this so they can settle it via reform instead of punishment, if that makes any sense.)

But the thing is...I really believe in Kurt not telling anyone. I went through something similar when I was eight years old and I never told a living soul until I was fourteen, and even then only my psychiatrist. Cops came to interview me to press charges against my own personal Karofsky, and I refused to tell them anything. I have no idea why I protected him that way, but I did, and I don't think Kurt knows why he's doing it, either (outside of the death threat, obviously). It's a very weird and very unfortunate instinct in those who've been treated this way, and even though it's hard to watch him suffering in silence, I completely buy it as natural.

*inhales* Long-winded rant was long-winded.

I have no idea how they're finally gonna get him to tell--I know what finally got me there, but I doubt Kurt could follow my long-twisty path to being open about what happened. I just hope that for his sake, when he does tell, Karofsky is somewhere that he can't hurt him anymore.

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Date: 2010-11-25 07:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dreamsofspike.livejournal.com
awwww, i love this :) so sweet :) and i love finn getting all protective...

think you might write an alternate ending where kurt *does* tell him so he can go all big brother on karofsky? that would be awesome :)

but this is awesome as is, love it sooo much :)

Date: 2010-11-25 11:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
lol, it would be complete wish fulfillment. Lots of OOC-yelling of, "Take that, you bastard!" while putting hands on hips and striking a dramatic movie-poster pose.

...there is something wrong with me.

Thanks!

Date: 2010-11-25 07:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kitkat1327.livejournal.com
This is just so adorable <3

I feel like all I'm ever saying in this comm is "adorable" haha

Date: 2010-11-25 11:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
lol! Me, too, but in the best possible way. I was trying to explain to a friend (who ships K/B but doesn't really get involved with fic or anything) why this comm is awesome, and I said, "It's like we haven't popped our collective angst cherry yet, so everything is awesome and fluffy and adorable." *nods*

Thanks!

Date: 2010-11-25 07:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] shizam-i-am.livejournal.com
very sweet. thanks for sharing, definitely loved it

Date: 2010-11-25 11:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!

Date: 2010-11-25 07:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] niniblack.livejournal.com
This is a wonderful "missing moment" for Furt. I love brotherly fluff with the two of them. :)

Kurt and Blaine are "talking". Aw!

Date: 2010-11-25 11:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!

I had a similar thing about the term "talking" when I was a teenager. Everyone I knew was like, "We're not dating! We're just talking!" and it seemed like a waste of time and drama to me. Then I met someone and we were "talking," too. Heh. It's not dating if you don't acknowledge you've ever been on a date! RENT was totally not a date, you guys!

Date: 2010-11-25 07:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mod-squad7117.livejournal.com
I love this Finn! This Finn is the perfect mix of doofus and defender. I really liked, in particular, the small gesture of Finn wanting to camp out with his new brother. And your Kurt shows such a great reflective capability to relate himself to Finn. What an amazing episode tag through and through.

Date: 2010-11-25 11:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thank you! I am so fully on board with the Finn we got in that episode. Brotherly love FTW!

Date: 2010-11-25 07:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] alter-alterego.livejournal.com
I'm just going to go ahead and add this to "Furt" in my mind, and no one's going to convince me that it didn't really happen.

I can see Kurt wanting to take the opportunity that the post-wedding-bliss provides to apologize for his part in the Finn/Kurt mess of 2010. And unfortunately, I can see him making the connection between his behavior and Karofskys. (Yes, unfortunately. In my mind, Kurt was damn pushy in regards to Finn. He took his crush too far, and refused to see reason -- but I don't think he even took it to the predatory, dangerous place that Karofsky's actions promise. That's all for my little tangent.) Point is, I can see KURT going there -- and I can see Finn getting hung up on the idea that someone is making his new-step-brother unconfortable. I really like how Finn refuses to drop it, even after repeated reassurances that its NOT Blaine.

Basically, I just love the concept, the dialogue, the execution... the fic. :)

Date: 2010-11-25 11:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Kurt definitely wasn't nearly as bad as Karofsky has been, but I do think that having been through this, he can perhaps relate a little better to the flip side of the equation--it didn't feel like being pushy to him at the time, because he was the one doing the pushing. Now that he knows what it's like not so much to be pushed as to be slammed, I think he might be a little bit more sympathetic to the other side of the story. But hey! If he hadn't pushed, they wouldn't be brothers, so maybe there's a silver lining.

Thanks!

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Date: 2010-11-25 08:11 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] renrenren3
This is adorable, and totally the perfect missing scene.

I kind of shipped Kurt/Finn last season, but as brothers? They're awesome. I particularly like the idea of a diva-off if Rachel breaks Finn's heart.

Date: 2010-11-25 11:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
I think I shipped Kurt/Finn back before we actually found out Finn's reaction to it, when Kurt would kinda be flirty, and then Finn would go O_O and that'd be the end of it. I was like, "Aw, how adorable. Maybe Finn just isn't comfortable with that part of himself yet..." and then it started to become clear that no, actually, he just wasn't comfortable with being pushed like that, and my shipping slowly petered off until I was just begging for them to be brothers already. And now they are! YAY!

Thanks!

Date: 2010-11-25 08:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] novoamor.livejournal.com
Love this *-* I'd really like to see some moments like this on the show.

Date: 2010-11-25 11:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!

Date: 2010-11-25 08:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] celemie.livejournal.com
:DDDDDD

Yay!

Date: 2010-11-25 11:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2010-11-25 08:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] panbutnotpeter.livejournal.com
Flawless gap-filler fic is flawless. <3

Date: 2010-11-25 11:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!

Date: 2010-11-25 09:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] the-sexypancake.livejournal.com
This fic is WONDERFUL! This is how I wish ep8 could have ended, if Karofsky really *was* out of the picture and Kurt didn't switch schools (tho I am glad he did, hee hee). I love brotherly moments between these two. It's sweet.

Date: 2010-11-25 11:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
lol, I know, I was so torn at the end of the episode. I was sad for Kurt and his friends, but I was also victory!armsing IRL because FINALLY, DALTON!

I kinda like the bitter-sweetness of the ending here. We know it's not over but Kurt doesn't, and I just want to hug him because finally, things were going right and then no, denied. *hugs him tight*

Date: 2010-11-25 01:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] shaolina.livejournal.com
This would have been the perfect for the episode. It shows why Blaine wasn't at the wedding, Kurt apologizing and these two being good brothers. I am so putting this in my mental deleted scenes. Great job!

Date: 2010-11-25 01:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thanks! I was kind of hoping for at least a mention of Blaine in the episode, even though I didn't expect him to be at the wedding. Just a passing comment from Mercedes, maybe a little, "Where's Blaine? You two've been attached at the hip," and Kurt going, "I can't invite him to the wedding, that's too much like a date," or something. But oh, well. Kurt's heading to Dalton, so I'm satisfied. :-D

Date: 2010-11-25 03:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] whenidance.livejournal.com
love this, total headcanon now.

Date: 2010-11-25 03:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Aw, thank you!

Date: 2010-11-25 04:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] safenthecity.livejournal.com
Aw, this is so perfect. I really hope we get some of this dynamic in episodes to come- of them being a proper family, protective Finn and Kurt having Rachel be part of his extended family of sorts and all.

Date: 2010-11-25 05:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
I have so many visions of their future. Rachel and Kurt would be EPIC in-laws.

Date: 2010-11-25 04:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] onebookwoman.livejournal.com
I hope you continue to write gap fillers to the episodes. This was an excellent story and helped round out the plot so well. One problem with reading so many Kurt/Blaine stories, is keeping the fiction away from what's actually happened on the show. I know I wanted Blaine to show up at the wedding, but you're right that weddings are really meant for well established couples and in canon, Blaine and Kurt aren't there yet.

Date: 2010-11-25 05:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
I don't know if I could do it every week, but this wouldn't let me go until I wrote it out, lol. I like to think that Blaine would've come to the wedding had Kurt asked, but it would've been really awkward because they haven't actually been on date yet and everyone, including Burt, Carol, and Finn, would've assumed they were together, and there'd be ~*questions*~ and frankly, it wasn't the time or the place for it. So in my head, Kurt wanted him there, but it wasn't time yet, not for something as big as a wedding.

Date: 2010-11-25 05:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lulu-kitty.livejournal.com
This was perfect.

Date: 2010-11-25 05:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] guest-age.livejournal.com
Thank you!
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